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Thursday, January 26, 2006

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 14:54:17 GMT

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I love leehom as well as this mv to the corrrrrrree!!! and dont laugh!

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 05:08:09 GMT

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 03:49:55 GMT

is me, going to MIX a mistake..yes it is. yet not listening to what she told me to do was rather a bigger one than actually going there.. anyway i enjoyed it last night, didnt accidently take any pill cuz we shared drink from a jar, and didnt get pinches in the ass or dirty touches cuz am simply not that attractive.

Friday, July 29, 2005

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 05:54:15 GMT

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Thursday, July 28, 2005

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 12:44:11 GMT

i think am reaching the end of it, i have made mistakes, many. including just yesterday. i knew that there will not be a result and PX was right that am gonna be hurt after all, but i just couldnt care less about it, i care more about how i feel being in the moment.. however this feeling s fading, what i hated eventually came, speechlessness and blank... is that what you intentioned to give me, or was it fate that i was meant to trip on one spot over and over. darling i love you, that s why am letting go of you ...

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 03:15:06 GMT

ummm.. yesterday was gonna be the worst day during my entire summer cuz mommy put the house we lived for 6 years in on sale, i helped put up a notification thing on internet and millions of ppl called asking to see the house and negociate the price. i was pretty damn sad, especially when i got there seeing where i used to live is now a total mess, i just couldnt bare with it. hummph, so i went to tiantian's place leaving mom to deal with all the agents and customers. aiyoo..

tiantian was at home with her boyfriend playing QQtang, and gee how i felt bad.. hahah i was a total lightbulb there.. it was kinda funny tho. tiantian's place was one of my fav. places to go when i was still schooling in beijing..it was cosy and it was messy kinda, so i didnt have to take everything so carefully.. umm.. i broke lots of stuff of the house.. a window of a bookshelf.. i didnt know how the piece of glass just fell off and crashed.. lol, it was damn scary that parents from both sides, hers and mine were even negociating of the damage and compensation...omg. and umm.. the door of the living room got breaken by me as well, i kicked it cuz i wasnt let in...and wot...ah right.. there was some pipe thing that tiantian's dad got back from yunnan.. yunnan? or somewhere pretty cool.. yah i just simply blew it and it got broken too.. hahah i didnt know what got into me tho everything i touched was like cursed or something.

i stayed for a while and then moved on to Hsin Tian Dee to catch a movie with him. but we didnt handle it well cuz apparently he wanted me to treat him but i couldnt, cuz i had to go for a dinner thing with this candy girl who s Bo's girlfriend, i was thinking about that so i said that i couldnt treat him so he got alittle bit of pissed off.. but i was quite pissed off as well.. why did i have to treat him all the time that s unfair. i decided to go home but on the way home he texted saying that he would get some money from his grand and we would still go for a movie. so i went to his place to pick him up and moved on to Hsin Tian Dee.

yah my day was kinda long but if you are still reading umm.. yah there was more.

He got into the cab and i was still a little bit of mad and he caught that, so he was like acting like a spoit child going "come on, dont be mad" blah blah blah and he said he would pay for the cab.. trust me it wasnt cheap it was like16 sin dollars (80 rmb) and i stopped being mad and said that i would pay for the movie which costed 50 bux per person.. and then we had a little chat in the cab and we arrived.

we got the tickets.. guess what we were watching? madacasgar.. again, for the 4th time for me... umm..

i had some yoshinoya (he treated!) b4 the movie cuz i didnt have anything to eat for the entire day, since i went to the old house in the morning with mom right after my chinese herbal medicine, i didnt get a chance to eat anything cuz u are not allowed to have food within 1/2 hour after you take chinese meds. where am i? oh yah..and we got into the theatre and the movie already started, we watched it and did som stuff.. mardacasgar was sooo goood! i mean who doesnt like animation raise your hand up again? cuz you are a total weirdo, everyone should love cartoon yes..

and after the movie we decided to go to some market to get some veges for his grand as he promised, so we took tubes and then a cab to go a super market near from our places.. we live kinda near from each other.. not that near.. but quite. and we got some tomatos, potatos, cucumbers and some peas. and then we went home. as in he went back to his and i went to mine.

PX read my xanga and wrote me a really really touching something.. am gonna keep it to myself cuz it was so nice that i dont wanna share with anyone else.. i really like him for him being soooo reliable and nice all the time. yah it was good.

manchester united s coming today~~ umm Beijing Hyundai vs Real madrid was pretty funny.. it was like watching a water polo match hahaha running around in puddles.. lol. i hope MU can win this time other wise i lose the bet with and i ll have to do watava he asks me to do..gee...

Friday, July 22, 2005

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 15:15:54 GMT

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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 11:30:43 GMT

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 14:09:24 GMT

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Monday, July 11, 2005

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 15:47:16 GMT

went to jess's place today and saw an old group pic back in elementary school with you in it, for a sec i had this urge of calling you telling you hey man you looked so cute in elementary, and for a sec i almost forgot that i was supposed to hate you, i was supposed to forget all about you.

it was 12 o'clock last night i was still working with the crew, shooting the final episode of "charming 12" for CCTV, got this message you sent me saying that you should have waken up from this dream i gave you much earlier before, i rushed to the bathroom and cried out loud, this girl i just met on that day was worried that she followed me there and lent me her shoulder, i wish it could be yours but you were all the way in town.. you were all the way in town telling me that she was the one you really loved.

i cleared up my mind and got one thing straight, you were not, you were definately not the one i loved back in the years of junior high, you were not the one who lent me his bike and told me to be careful riding on it, you were not the one who was so shy that didnt have the guts of holding my hand, whereas i was expecting, you were not the one who i shared so many memorable moments with. you share the same look with him that i got you guys all mixed up.. i realised that that it was my stupidity that should be criminated.

there was something else, my pride. because i once had you in my arms, i once felt the warmth of your lips, your hands and your body.. and those were something i couldnt let go, i told myself that i liked you first so i should own the priority, until i see her.

i saw you wearing the tee she gave you, whereas the one i gave you ages ago must have gone lost. i saw you smiling at her acting like a spoiled child, i saw her, being all cute and pretty, calling me "sis". and i realised that love is not about being early or late, it is not about priority or anything like that.

but i hate you. i hate you for saying that you had to wake up from the dream i gave you. because it was not me who created the dream, it was you who dragged me into your own dream. you pretended to be the boy i used to know and love and confused me. you let me feel like i was a total fool as i havent grown up in these whole 5 years, i loved the wrong person twice and that makes me entirely an immature.

i hate you for letting me think that i was the one who stepped into your wonderful relationship with this girl who did abortion 3 times for you, you made me feel like a criminal who destroyed the trusting relationship between you and her.

but remember?? do u fucking remember what i told you? dont be so fucking nice to me and i didnt need any of those for this summer?? you do remember that but you still did what you did. and then you pulled yourself outta this and left me totally hanging feeling all guilty and shit. and that's what i hate you for.

we sat back in the couch and talked about the past, "oh remember the self portrait i drew you?" you said, "it spent me an entire afternoon but you showed it to your best friend and she messed it all up by sketching random bits on it, and i hated her so much for that.." " and you sure i never held your hands in junior high? that s a shame, cuz you were the only girl i liked during all those years you know?"

oh fuck that shit. they indeed touched me so deeply then, however when i now think back about them, they disgust me. you disgust me. on and off for 5 years, there was always a place for you inside of my heart, yet it has somehow disappeared, together with the message you sent me saying ¡°±ðËµÁËºÃÂð£¬ÄãÒÔÎªÎÒ²»ÔÚÍ´¿à×ÅÂð£¿muack, Íí°²¡±

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this is all, that i can leave you. the last thing which has you and me both involved, for the very last time ever. this entry.

good night, coward.